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[Nov. 12th, 2004|12:48 am] |
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| |  hungry | ] |
Sounds of laughter shades of earth are ringing
Through my open views inciting and inviting me.
Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns,
It calls me on and on across the universe
While these words live within me like the cockaroaches in my kitchen they also allow me to procrastinate studying for my wonderful midterms and writing delicious papers. No class today and surprise, i didn't get shit done. Went off on Adam because i was bored, what a bitch. But i'm still "cutie pie"... I need to go to a good show and hear something live that could live in me too. Sick, i just like live music with real emotion from real people.
Tomorrow i start my glorious coldhearted-fag-hunt - i.e. revenge of the mistreated jew. MWAHAHAHA |
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[Jan. 5th, 2004|12:34 am] |
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| |  ecstatic | ] |
bliss bliss bliss bliss
happiness happiness
i am overjoyed |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 27th, 2003|03:32 pm] |
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Found this somewhere - if u got a romantic somewhere deep inside - read it. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 22nd, 2003|11:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crushed | ] |
i don't have a father anymore. That person is now just that person, there is no reminance of a family here.
i wish i would not wake up ever again. |
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[Dec. 22nd, 2003|11:24 pm] |
 Aries(March 21 - April 19)
Are you tired of feeling like you have more to do in life than you’ve already done? If so, make time today to think about what you’d really like to have happen in your future. Pretend that there is nothing to hold you from your goals. Then, bring yourself back into the real world and assess the obstacles that you need to overcome. Don’t get angry about your current situation. Begin to change it for the better. |
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[Dec. 22nd, 2003|11:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lost | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Audioslave - I Am The Highway | ] |
i want to piece it all together...i can't do it... how do i do it? how do i overcome the ego and gain a true perspective? i am torn, my mind is like a million piece puzzle that was spread throughout the world as if some cremated matter thrown in the wind to be done with as the elements seem fit, it so despirately wants to be whole again but just can't find all of it's components. the picture cannot be completed with pieces of it hidden away in diametrically opposite locations; they cannot reach each other to become whole again; the sky cannot reach down to the magma of the core, they cannot become one again. their union can only be possible by erruption. i need so badly to errupt, to let the elements mix as they wish to form me again but that cannot happen without understanding of what becomes of the element when they mix, the mechanics of it, the atom-by-atom formation of the product. How does one discover the atoms of their soul; how does one learn their properties; how does one categorise them into a table to see the whole, to see the big piture, to be able to predict how their various mixtures become a product with defined properties? |
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[Dec. 20th, 2003|02:21 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | AFI - God Called In Sick Today | ] |
Its good not feel empty for a change
to feel connected to someone
my scalp is itchy
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 20th, 2003|02:21 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | worried | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Coldplay - In My Place | ] |
- i hope things never get weird between us, i wouldn't be alive right now if it wasn't for you, even when we were at each other's throats i couldn't stop being amazed by you. Time can't change that, no matter how bad the timing might be.
"But, you can't deny how I feel
And you can't decide for me" |
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[Dec. 18th, 2003|06:06 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | AFI - Morningstar | ] |
i am tired of living
"And maybe I'll fall hard,
Something tough to break me,
Something sharp to rip into my insides
And bleed out all that pain" |
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[Dec. 17th, 2003|02:02 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  jubilant | ] |
i'm thuper, thanth for athkin'
no nothing bugth me
everything ith thuper when u're.. |
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[Dec. 17th, 2003|02:02 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
pain of a thousand screaming syrens bouncing from wall to wall in my head.
--i did see it sometimes, but other times i thought i was being crazy. i cant think of anythign to say. you can go to bed.
-- well then i'll go to bed and we'll talk about it tomorrow.
it's ok, we can pretend that nothing was said. it changes nothing. |
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[Dec. 15th, 2003|11:47 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  disappointed | ] |
He: thinks he knows everything, in denial, a pathological lier, outwardly moral, inwardly egocentric, unwilling to open his eyes or change/evolve.
She:eager to please, no thoughts of her own, unable to see the simple truth, deceived, outwardly happy, inwardly a child.
Both fake, both playing a game, both wrapped up in an illusion, hanging on to something that has no grounds for existing.
"In order to be successful, one must project an image of success at all times."
--me: sick to my stomache, dissapointed with all the fakeness, selfishness and carelessness of humanity, heart clenched, cannot take a breath, need to bleed out the pain, outwardly akward, inwardly in need of calming.
"Sometimes there's so much ****** in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in." |
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[Dec. 15th, 2003|02:09 am] |
i am the smear girl
i am the smear girl
i am like the doo doo
coo coo co-choo |
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